When I was a child I went through a traumatic situation. It left me emotionally crippled, with a metaphorical gaping wound and a broken bone. Unable to deal with a certain range of emotions and unable to receive love.
Then I healed. Eventually the wound stopped bleeding, a scab formed and over time fell away. Until all that remained was a scar, gently caressing the memory. Noticed only by a perceptive few.
Until recently there was a situation where I work. A child with a story that was shockingly similar to my own. As I sat on the street with this abandoned child, I felt a slew of memories rush back. I had sat exactly where he had sat. I had spent years trying to heal, and he was only at the beginning.
But hindsight is 20/20. As I looked at him and all the hurt he had endured, I saw the confusion of a child. I saw the struggle of a parent to deal with a child who has already been traumatized. I saw how self defense can look like selfishness to outsiders. I saw it all so clearly.
I realized that while my wound had healed on the outside, the bone was not properly aligned. As I cared for this boy with my same story, I felt the bone break again. I felt the Spirit say, "You thought you healed, but it was always in the wrong place. Now that we have set the bone into place, now you can heal again."
So here I am, healing again.
Then I healed. Eventually the wound stopped bleeding, a scab formed and over time fell away. Until all that remained was a scar, gently caressing the memory. Noticed only by a perceptive few.
Until recently there was a situation where I work. A child with a story that was shockingly similar to my own. As I sat on the street with this abandoned child, I felt a slew of memories rush back. I had sat exactly where he had sat. I had spent years trying to heal, and he was only at the beginning.
But hindsight is 20/20. As I looked at him and all the hurt he had endured, I saw the confusion of a child. I saw the struggle of a parent to deal with a child who has already been traumatized. I saw how self defense can look like selfishness to outsiders. I saw it all so clearly.
I realized that while my wound had healed on the outside, the bone was not properly aligned. As I cared for this boy with my same story, I felt the bone break again. I felt the Spirit say, "You thought you healed, but it was always in the wrong place. Now that we have set the bone into place, now you can heal again."
So here I am, healing again.
